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FRIENDS ONLY.

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 00:58:46 GMT

l o c k e d

comment to be added ♥

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 23:19:28 GMT

going back to friends only ..

just a few thanks.

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 23:25:09 GMT

a rough couple of days ..

thanks to:

alyssa: thanks for always being there. it means a lot. you know i'll always be here for you too if you ever need it, and please don't avoid that option. you said it yourself, "best friends forever." thanks for stickin by my side. <3

brandon: you know i love you with all my heart, and we WILL be together forever. this has been a rough week, and i'm sorry for all the trouble that i caused. thanks for never leaving me. you mean the world. i love u baby.

btw...
happy easter

Sat, 10 Apr 2004 13:03:58 GMT

fuck this.

my back hurts =(

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 02:35:06 GMT

my weekend was pretty fun..

showrt update cuz' im tired.

friday - whilled w/ brandon .. then went to kevins with ruben, lauren, fran, and jess, and kevin, rob, and roch were there. and we were there for about 15 minutes n' some guy pulled a gun on us so, to make a long story short - spent the night at the police station then went to ryans and me and trish went home <3

sat - sat class, work, my house - lyss, julie, and dani came over and my sis had like 30 people here (8th graders) so we were "hangin out with them" haha.

sun - woke up, watch thirteen and went riding with brandon, my mom, danielle, and julie. we got so sooo muddy. and i dropped my camera somewhere =( and i cant find it. and my back hurts sooooo bad too. then we went shopping for a lil' i bought a pair of pants and 2 shirts - thats pretty much it (and a bag)

today - school. (schools school - nothing exciting) went to brandons, went to his uncles for like 2 minutes, came back, my mom picked me up - grounded me cuz i wasn't allowed to be there and tonight i had to take a practice SAT. sucked. then i had to do like 8000000 pages of h/w

now im TIRED so goodnight

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 02:00:33 GMT

is it all worth it?

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 01:49:16 GMT

well .. i had soccer practice yesterday. wow. im a fat motherfucker out of shape. work sucked too. my boss if a flippin' bitch, and shes dumb.
today was ok i guess. school was school. i went to amandas - left my phone there .. went to costco - that place is awesome. and now i have h/w like crazy. ok bye

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 21:34:46 GMT

happy birthday steph!
(my sis)

i dont make excuses

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 23:57:36 GMT

i dont wanna go to school tomorrow =\ school sucks.

ive been in that weird depressed mood lately, don't know why. can't wait till next weekend, alyss is FINALLY coming to my house! and tuesday i am actually go to soccer. work sucks. we got in trouble today for reading magazines, while people from pelican (next door) come in and buy coloring books to entertain themselves. we have to "keep busy the entire time" - i need a new job so bad! 2 1/2 months till my birthday. 17! ah. can't wait. well, i watched mona lisa smile last night with my mom. we cried, how pathetic. julia roberts is an amazing actress, even though julia stiles is my favorite. april 2nd - the prince and me everyone go see it. ok - thats all.

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 00:44:38 GMT

hey guys this is xlosingxgripx i just redid this chicks journal hott huh?

xlosingxgripx is amazing! <3

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 02:02:06 GMT

i love how people think that just because someone can smile all the time that there is nothing wrong.. smiling doesn't do anything but hide the fears and the regrets and the lost tears, smiling only helps to keep the pain inside and to keep people from assuming the worst, but they already have.. because by thinking that nothing is wrong with a person who can constantly smile, can usually make things more painful.

right where i want you ...

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 00:56:22 GMT

half way through the week. pretty good i guess.

today was a shit day : failed my physics test, did bad on my pre-calc test, that sucks. im just one stupid motherfucker. but anyway on the other part...

* ALYSS BUSTED OPEN HER PANTS! haha <3 love u girl

* me and brandon had a great day together .. we just chilled, but thats the fun part haha .. oh annnnd we ate at the china buffet tonight. that was awesome.

* i play super mario 3 on the old ass nintendo while brandon played me his guitar haha. (that was the best game ever)

hmm .. i can't wait till spring break. its supposed to be warm as hell on friday, but rain =( thats so depressing. rain sucks. oh well.

wo0 weekends over =(

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 16:33:56 GMT

well, the weekend is over, but it was fun. friday i had no school, which was cool. but i had work all night, came home, showered and wanted to go to sleep so i straightened my hair REALLY quick, but i got a stupid burn on my finger =( and now it turned into a blister, and its really ugly and it hurts. but yeah saturday woke up for my princeton review class, then went to work, and then julies SWEET 16 love u hun<3 it was verrry fun. i usually dont have fun at those things, but i learned to get my ass up and *try* to dance haha. lets just say i'm 100% white girl. haha (brandon always makes fun of me cuz im such a white girl) but hey .. whatever i try and i dont care if i embarass the shit out of myself. anyway i drove him home last night after alyss ran out then brandon ran after ross to talk to him or something. then ross kissed her, it was cute. awww. but yeah now - sunday morning - ready for work, AGAIN. but whatever $ i guess.
<3 x0

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 01:51:01 GMT

BlAh .. i hate school

my mom gave me bangs =)

im closer to getting my new purse* yay!

talked to alyss for a while when i got home from work. love u bff <3

work sucked.

its supposed to snow again. k bye

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 01:28:00 GMT

well, lets see. this morning was upsetting because every township except mine had a delayed opening. that sucked. i was looking forward to that. anyway - i got up this morning blah blah, went to school
*physics - finished lab. i suck in that class. we have a test next class. he makes us copy like 10 pages of notes each class, and i never understand it! ahh!
*pre-calc - i hate this class! same thing. he never explains, and i sit in the front row and he spits all over, and then some how he seems to gather spit in the corners of his mouth and its fuckin NASTY! ew.
*psych - my class is obnoxious and disrespectful. its boring. we took an IQ test tho - that was cool i guess
*comp/art - this is my favorite class. we're making some 3D design thing, it's cool. but anyway - yeah

i came home today tried to do my history shit. im failing that class too. ugh, and i have a test tomorrow. i want to go out to breakfast and skip it, but i know it wont happen. but yeah i got my haircut today and had a sex talk w/ my mother. i just finished watching miss congeniality w/ my brother and mom haha. i love that movie. ok now im sitting home waiting for brandon to call me <3

SNO*W

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 01:26:19 GMT

wow. its snowing!

lets see, today was an awesome day because we got out of school early. jess drove me and brandon home, and then we chilled. me and brandon sat and did my homework for a little, then went riding in the snow. my mom thought she could drive me to work, but it took 4 tries to get up the driveway and when we did we couldnt even move in the street, so we turned around. that was pretty much my day. oh and theres this ADORABLE coach purse/tote that i want! ahh. yeah ok. bye now.

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 22:15:08 GMT

well, its monday night. 5 o'clock, and in less than an hour im going back to school to take a stupid practice SAT for the princeton review shit im taking. i swear i have to take like 8 and it sucks. whatever. i dont think its going to help cuz i can never stay awak for the stupid classes. but anyway

this weekend pretty much sucked.
friday --> brandon left to go to atlantic city, and i had work right after school until 930ish, that blew. i asked for a raise cuz its bullshit, then i went home, cried for 3 hours. three - not even exaggerating. i flipped out on my mom, and i felt really bad. then i did some stupid shit. whatever though. life sucks, and i have no one so - i had no choice.
saturday --> SAT class from 8-11:30. that sucked. then i went home, changed and went to work for 7 hours. came home, and brandon came over and we talked pretty much all night. i have a problem - is it possible to cry too much? cuz if it is, i have that problem. ugh brandon left at like 12 something, and i fell asleep
sunday --> work AGAIN for 6 hours, then my baby surprised me at work and bought me maddd candy <3 mmmm sour starburst jelly beans are awesome. thanks babe <3 love u
today --> school, its like 50º and its supposed to snow tomorrow, but anyway dani and i bought velveeta mac & cheese and soda and shit in KMart today cuz it looked madd good, and it was fuckin awesome. alyssa wrote me a note today, and it almost made me cry. i love her. that girl will never leave my side <3

thats all for now.
x0

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 01:54:50 GMT

so .. today sucked. school is horrible. everyone hates me. work sucks too. i have no money .. still.
- brandon gets mad at me for talking to everyone
- alyssa still just hates me

everything just pretty much sucks.

bye

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 02:08:59 GMT

hmm .. well, the weekend was fun. i didnt have work friday so me and brandon hung out .. did our thing :) and then ate chinese (i bought cuz im a great girlfriend) then we fell asleep. it was the best night ever though.
saturday morning i woke up for my wonderful SAT class that sucks. i went home .. changed and then went to work. after work i went to danielles and chilled w/ my best again. we drank and yeah :)

sunday = work then chilled w/ brandon. we watched finding nemo!!! haha great movie.

monday i took brandon w/ me while i got my nails done then went shopping - i got my prom dress!!!! (well, not physically .. but its on hold as of this second) yeah brandon loves me and i love him

school sucks

had a bad day ...

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 01:30:58 GMT

wow. it's been a pretty hectic week/month/year.

i'm going to basically tell the story of my life, this could be long or it could be short. about 1 year ago .. my best friend left me beause i found *the one* - i guess she didn't accept that. then i lost her .. and since then it's never been the same like it's been the past few years. same with danielle, my other best friend. we've been friends since about 3rd grade .. but she still talks to me at least. i guess it's my fault that i chose my boyfriend to hang out with more than them .. but they still couldn't stick by my side. i mean, now they're there to say a "hello" or a "whats up" - i dont know - it sucks. i miss them so incredibly much <3 but .. it's different now i guess - it's my fault. not theirs.

on with everything else. i work about 7 days a week. thank god for brandon - he's never left my side, and i hope he never will. i'll marry him - i swear!

juniors had to take the HSPAs this week - it sucked! hopefully tomorrow i can get breakfast with brandon :-\

another thing .. feruary 24, 2004
RIP Herman <3 i love you.

today:
went to burger king with danielle ... then went home ... then went to work [Kumon] .. came home, talked to brandon .. talked to alyss [fuck bobby!]... watching friends ... about to call brandon back .. thats it.

<3 miss you all!!!

*x0 candi

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 21:54:08 GMT

sorry .. no updates :\

1 year

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 03:23:41 GMT

HAPPY ONE YEAR, YESTERDAY, BABY
i love you so much!!

fuckin work blows.

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 15:04:41 GMT

it's fuckin sunday morning .. and i have work in an hour and a 1/2 and it blows. i didn't go to soccer this morning cuz' i have NO energy whatsoever. danielle and alyss are probably mad at me cuz i didn't go to danielle's last night .. but yeah.

work yesterday sucked. 8 hrs on my feet is a bitch.

brandon was over last night. we were watching 2 fast 2 furious, and my parent came in the basement and my mom starts screaming "let's play pool" so . she versed brandon haha. he won off her scratch at the 8 ball. my mom was so fuckin retarded last night. it was funny though.

it's supposed to snow tonight. i hope it does. i want to go snowboarding. ok .. thats all.

x0

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 01:48:57 GMT

well, not too much has been going on.

i got another job. drug fair. wo0. umm .. i work 6 days a week + school, which may not seem like a lot, but it is. oh well .. i need the money. i've finally started talking to my dearest jessica again. we used to be best friends since like ... forever. we chilled this weekend. haha. madd peace. saturday night we thought we were going to die, cuz my lovely cousin is an idiot, and fucked up his van. oh well. no big loss or anything. sunday i played 2 soccer games .. holy shit i'm out of shape. i dont eat dinner anymore - that sucks (work). but yeah .. my only day off this week is sunday :( that sucks. well .. thats all the new for now.

back.

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 00:42:55 GMT

well, back to the journal thing. i'm going to start posting these entries public. some will still be "friends only" but for now . i feel like posting generally.
so it's january 15th. exactly 5 months till' my birthday, which mean 5 months till i can drive *hopefully*
anyway .. nothing's been new lately. danielle and i are still fighting. i've been talking to jess lately. i miss that girl so much <3 i talked to her at the wrestling match last night for a while. that was after brandon got kicked out. we're supposed to chill soon. it snowed today. that's awesome. its madd cold. my dad's a fuckin heat-nazi and still keep the house at like 50º so we can all freeze. so .. work today sucked. the other people i work with said my boss tried to screw them over with their paycheck. that better not happen to me. she's a fuckin' dumbass and closes early when more kids are supposed to be coming, *i work at a learning center* , then she wonders why so many people stop coming. well, when they have to pay $95 a month and she closes early so they don't get their money's worth i'd leave too.
i'm eating ranch sunflower seeds they're madd good.
my moms making me take this SAT class. anyone ever taken one? is it worth it? is anyone going to take it?
hmm. i hope i go snowboarding saturday. it actually snowed. my mom wanted to go to vermont, but that thought just seemed to fade. ok well, enough for tonight. x0